I volunteer with the Humane Society of Mo but this isn’t the point.  I brought my water bottle with me because it’s getting warm outside.  It’s a great water bottle that normally retails for $20 but I got for $40 on a huge clearance sale.  It was a great purchase and even the cashier couldn’t believe the price when it was rung up.  I was so exhausted on Saturday that I left without my water bottle.  I forgot all about it.  There are tons of people that go through that place, and anyone of them could have walked off with my water bottle.  It sat in the open of the staff area for two full days.  I was convinced it would be gone as lots of things get taken from there.  I went anyways and was shocked to find it still there.

It made me think about human decency.  The right thing isn’t always the easy thing and anyone could have walked off with my water bottle without a fuss.  They didn’t though.  It was refreshing to have people do the right thing even if it was over something small.

Do you ever feel like you spend too much time watching TV?  I mean that is time that you don’t spend reading, writing, or creating anything.  I know I love TV.  I get hooked on TV shows all the time and watch them in marathon runs.  I just love to consume, consume, consume.  One day I challenged myself though with a single thought.  I asked myself “If tomorrow you somehow came into enough money to never work again what would you do?”  I had trouble with this question.  I started by thinking of what I would like to do with the ability to become an entrepreneur but had no idea what business I would start.  Nothing sounded good to me.  What worried me is that I would become a couch potato in the extreme sense because I loved movies and TV Shows.  I love to spend my free time doing nothing as it refreshes, relaxes, and rejuvenates me.  I wouldn’t want that to be my life though.

I pondered this thought for an entire weekend and by Sunday night I began feeling upset that I truly could not figure out what I would do that would make me happy.  How would I spend my time, and what would I make of it.  I stopped and cleared my head.  I was clearly over thinking this which was making it worse.  When I cleared my head out it struck me as being so obvious.  I would first move somewhere on the west coast (NOT LA) and live near the ocean.  Maybe even somewhere in Mexico or an island in the Caribbean.  I need to be warm and near the ocean however.  Then I would take some time to do nothing.  This is to allow me to reset myself and leave the mundane repetitiveness that comes with almost any job.  Once I felt good again I would begin writing a my existential thoughts.

I have always loved existential writing as it just fits me naturally. I am always pondering the meaning of life, how everything is connected, and the purpose or reason behind everything that happens.  I can see it clearly in my life and the better I get to know someone the more I can see it in them as well.  I always understood what authors like Henry David Thoreau were talking about.  I get it.  I love exploring it.  I would try to live simple because without the clutter and chaos of life I find myself.  I learn this every time I go on vacation.  Life just isn’t like that…yet.  I have faith that it won’t always be like this but in the mean time I am going to push myself to try and write my existential thoughts.  I am going to try and put my own mark on what this crazy thing called life is all about.  I’m not saying I will have all the answers but I am saying I have some ideas.  All I can do is post my ideas and hope others see what I see.